friendship

Resolving friendship problems are always a pain in the arse!!

First everyone is happy with one another, because you just met, you try to tolerate one another's flaws and behaviour. Then, you started realising that, either one of you are stubborn, or both of you are stubborn, and when an argument arise you just won't want to give in.

Or

A third party comes in, and wheels your friend away, and he/she sorta kinda forgets about you.

Or

You realise that both of you just cannot co-exist in the same space, because either you are too alike, or too unalike.

Or

Misunderstandings occur, and you feel that its each other's fault.

But sometimes, when such argument last for so God damn long, you started to feel either better off without your annoying friend, or worse off because you can't help wondering if you could revert things back with him/her. Or neither, because you are so confused trying to decide which condition is better for you.

And when you do put in some effort to repair the broken relationship, or something triggers both of you to finally realise that you're being foolish, the process of healing is so troublesome. Its takes loads of patience, tons of tolerance, and endless amount of effort.

And then when you finally come to an agreement to really become friends like how you use to be, it becomes to freaking awkward. Cos you get too used to being without one another, share different friends and different habits, then one day you are with him/her, totally altering your lifestyle, it becomes so so so awkward, you might just wanna resort back to being without one another.

So what do you do? You are now caught in between two decisions. To put in more effort to work things out, or to just abandon the idea, thinking its wrong to even try go back to how things used to be? Worse thing is that you aren't even sure the opposite party's thoughts, and you don't dare to ask in case you screw things up.

Let me tell you, friendship is one hell of a confusing thing. So its always much better to appreciate it when you have it. Cos when you lose it and try to get it back, its damn bloody difficult, and things won't ever be the same again. Sometimes its just isn't your fault, but things happen anyway, like how life always suck. Worse off, is you lose it for good. You've just lost someone who you can share and confide things with, and its such such such a pity cause you shared so many things, know each others flaws and you're just not talking to one another. Not to say you missed him/her or what, but simply because its such a pity pity pity, like such a waste to not be friends with one another anymore over no reason.

Let me ask you, do you think its worth gaining back a friend whom you're comfortable with, but in the process you risk losing you current ones simply because they don't blend, but you hope and pray and work damn hard to make them blend, but it just may not work, but you still try anyway??? Is it worth going through so much trouble to do so??