O.H.M.Y.G.O.D.......

I have to make this post really quick. 15 minutes.

I just made a REALLY LUNATIC CRAZY OUT OF MY MIND DECISION.

I still tremble by the thought of that decision.

1stly, I have to apologise to loads of people whom I gave misleading conception. Most of all, LiXia, cos I made her stay in UK to see me go over. Lol. LiXia, its not going to happen anymore (unless I fail my exam choi choi choi!)

Instead today, after much pondering and deviating from studies for about 3 days, I've decided to follow my heart, and opt fot the SUPER DUPER RISKY CHOICE.

I am opting to go to USA. Thomas Jefferson College, in Philadephia, Pennysylvia.

So why am I still hyperventilating??

It really took me a whole load of courage to step up to that decision.

I always thought I would end up in UK. Since semester 1, 2, 3, 4, and first half of semester 5. I always knew UK had the whole problem about letting foreigners stay and specialise, but I always wanted to go to UK and my insistence on it kind of obscured the ugly scene. In fact, on tuesday itself I even submitted my choices ranking from Liverpool, Southampton, Glasgow and Edinburgh to the Academic department.

But today, I made this really brave, couragous, challenging decision. USA is a safer choice for the future, but a much riskier choice now. Because, there are only 3 spaces open, and there are 4 of us wanting it. Should I be the unlucky one to get the worse results in my USMLE out of the 4, I might end up not going to USA, nor UK, nor anywhere I prefer. Opting for Thomas Jefferson is a ALL OR NOTHING decision.

I am still scared. To be honest, frankly, I spend about 5 mins crying because I was so afraid I will make the wrong decision, just before handing in my decision to the Academic department. Yea, crybaby crying crying wailing loud loud kinda crying (just the kind Vanessa hates). Not just the tears streaking down the face kinda thing. Oh gosh. I really hope I wont regret my decision.

Now all I gotta do, is to strive really hard in my studies. Get A's in all my remaining exams, score the highest possible in my USMLE, and my dream to the USA will be a reality. Just pray that I'm not the unlucky ONE to be kicked out. *crossing fingers*

So no more movies, no more nail painting, no more yamcha sessions, no more anything till the Month of November. Its study study study, strive hard and be lifeless for a better future. (my blog might cease to be updated often too)

God please bless me I really need the strength to not regret this decision. I hope I wont loos the motivation half way through. May my remainding 3 examinations pass with FLYING colours (because just a pass is not enough)

Ps : Congrates to my sister. 11A1's and a B3 is impressive =)