Thursday, October 29, 2009

Is this the end???

I feel so alive and dead right now. ALIVE cos the damn *&#wtf&&cnnbbq@@%#csu&^%#&knnccb^&^%pbl&^%^&% exams are over. Dead cos of the tired-ness.

Yesh yesh yesh . Yew-Ass-Am-Elle-Yeee IS OVER!!! (unlessifailandneedtoresitwhichissupertouchwoodchoichoichoislapmyselfforsayingthat)

I can't believe I actually survived the entire ordeal (the whole studying + taking the exam)

But first of all, I wanna thank my mother father sister for accompanying me through this tough period, all those friends friends who were always giving me encouragement, oh and you-know-who for just being there to study with me.

Right-tou. Where do I start. I got SO MANY things in my head right now I believe this post is going to extend miles and miles and miles. I can't be bothered to even blog about the whole "something something".

Okay okay. Lets deal with all those questions people are asking.

HOW WAS THE PAPER???????

It was like a roller coaster ride at first, then it kinda became a waterfall, and then it transformed into a hamburger, and then it became disneyland, and lastly it ended with a Halleluyah.

Honesly speaking, it wasn't as bad as I thought it would be. So many people told me that "its totally normal to feel devastated after your first few blocks, but you gotta be strong!!" I thought I was really gonna feel like crap and was actually scared for like a few days before the exam thinking I am going to feel like crap. I couldn't sleep the whole of yesterday night and had to resort drinking fruit liqour and sleeping pills just so I can get sufficient rest man.

I HATE feeling like crap and I don't deal this whole feeling like crap business very well. I kept imagining myself breaking down into pieces and crying at the corner of the exam hall with all the examiners staring at me. But hey, it ain't so bad. I didn't cry for one thing, and I didn't feel devastated. Maybe all the thinking has desensitized me.

What was I feeling??? I was kinda feeling like, whoa so many questions so many choices my eyes are going kookuu kookuu. Then there were occasional "yohimbines" and I was like WTF ITS IN IMU LECTURE NOTES AND I DIDN'T READ IT, so I tembak-ed the 3 yohimbine questions. And occasionally something will jump out and scare me, like the whole BLUE EYE SCLERA OSTEOGENESIS IMPERFECTA. Imagine doing the question qith a pair of scary looking eyes glaring at you. Gave me the chills man.

Can I pass? I seriously don't know. No idea at all. I mean its 350 ques man, I kinda lost count of how many question I don't know the answer (I think got bout 200 ++) and how many questions I made careless mistakes. So we'll just wait 6 weeks from now again man. Gonna be a tough 6 weeks.

Right now, I'm so super duper tired cos its a freaking 8 hours paper man!! But I'm freaking stubborn and I refuse to go to bed early Haha cos its like the FIRST TIME IN TEN MONTH I CAN ACTUALLY ONLINE GUILT FREE MAN!!! I feel like a 5 year old kid getting so excited over petty little things like this.

What are my plans now??

OMIGOSH have you seen the ever growing long long long long long long long list at the sidebar -----> I think I need to strike some out already man. LOL. Too many to achieve. Ahhh. And I've got secret project alpha and beta which I won't tell you cos its a secret. DUH!! Actually I kinda have the syndrome of I-Dunno-Where-To-Start, but I already started secret project alpha man. So I guess slowly slowly la.

Alrighto. More pictures and substantial blog material another time k. WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE. I can finally say this after ten months!!!

EXAMS OVER!!! Hip hip HOORAY!!

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