Here I am now, sitting and staring at my computer screen, with a pounding heart. Woke up way too early this morning (well, I slept way too early last night too). Tons of thoughts are racing through my mind. "What's a Pimozide?", "What if the questions are too tricky and I'm too stupid to get it?" "What should I eat for dinner tonight?" "What if I fail?" "What should I wear to the beach?" "Should I get the Gap hat?"
Doesn't really help either, when you're trying to calm yourself down, but you feel the pounding beats of your heart everywhere (makes me wonder if I have an aortic regurgitation, hmmm...). So what can I say. I have been studying since forever, constant study for about a year now for shelf after shelf, and the main purpose for all the studying, was for this big scary exam. Yes. Step 2 CK. After so much studying, I still feel unprepared, felt like crap. Doing my mock wasn't very helpful either, instead I made so many careless mistakes I seriously doubt my exam taking skills.
But all is said and done. I cannot postpone the exam, nor can I just don't show up to take it. I have to do it. The only way to win despite all the odds, is to think positive, look ahead, and have faith. Miracles happen. Well, hardwork helps too. No amount of studying, or simply feeling depressed can make me a brilliant smart A student overnight. But having a good mind set will definitely change things a little, and harbour some hope.
Yes. I can do this. Nine hours. Its a battle.
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