Leaving with a heavy heart

It's not my first time leaving Msia to pursue my studies. But somehow, this time my heart feels ten thousand times heavier. Or maybe even a millions times. The difference between leaving now, and leaving then is the bonds I've made throughout these four years. These bonds are strengthened so much more such that the chains are heavier.

I am not given a choice. I need to leave. I need to pursue a bright future. I need to throw behind people I love, people I've spend my entire life time with, people who know me, people who are true friends, in exchange for meeting new uncertain people in a foreign land. I know I am super weird. I bet I'm the only silly person who doesn't look forward to this new adventure. But USA is such a far away place, and the air tix cost a bomb. Coming home often isn't really an option. If I knew departing would be such an emotional roller coaster for me I might have even consider opting for S'ban instead.

Today, is the day I depart, and at this precise moment, I am probably sitting in the plane, face soaked full of tears. I admit, I'm emotional and I wanna tell you all, that I'm leaving with such a heavy heart. In fact, tears are forming in my eyes as I type this. The past few months doesn't seem enough to redeem back the time that I am not able to spend with you overseas. I may miss out a lot, may not be there for you through thick and thin, but I will definitely feel your absence.

To my beloved Mom and Dad. Do keep me updated about every single thing that happened in your life. I regret not being able to be there for festive celebrations or familiar dinners. I love you two a lot and after all that I've been through you were always there for me.

To my lovely Sister, do take good care. Learn to be independent and try not to trouble momma n papa too much. Have fun experimenting with my sacrificial clothes but don't spoil them alright. Learn how to use a webcam too and don't forget to take many pictures to keep me updated with the Skinny Pinky. I will really miss those sister cam-whorish moments and the Lala 123.

To Jessica, quit your job. And don't overwork yourself. Must go online all the time okay, and get a BB so we can BBmsg each other. I really wish we can do another Singapore trip someday again zomg it was so fun. Save lotsa money to come find me in USA k.

To my Secondary School friends, please take a lot of pictures and post them online whenever there is a gathering and I can't be there. Do update more on FB and Msn and keep in touch alright. Gosh I will miss those late yumcha nights and karaoke sessions we always have.

To my other friends, take good care and keep in touch. Till we meet again folks.

Lets hope that in an eye-blink's time I will be back again. One year from now to be precise. I therefore bid everyone a temporary farewell, and all the best. I'll update more often to keep everyone posted of my life's up and downs. And do let me know if you notice I've grown fatter (my biggest phobia). Lets look forward to meeting again!

Time to take care of the waterfalls on my face. . . . . .