Bad 2009 year

I take back what I said about 2009 being a good year. Apparently bad karma hits you when you think you can be a much better person. Like when you say "I will get A for exams" and karma deals with you by giving you a nice fat C because it thinks that you're trying to defeat fate and climb over its head.

I've tried being positive. 2008 was such a shit year but I stayed positive. I look back on positive things to make 2008 look like it's worth living. I have the hope that 2009 will become much better. Why must that hope of mine get shattered just at the start of it? Why won't God give me a chance to look at things on the bright side?

I even took a head start to making my year a better one. Started studying before school term starts, be more participative in universities event. Be more patient with people. Etc etc etc.

What do I get in return. My horoscope reads that my exam luck is down this year. Okay fair enough, I'll make it up with hardwork. So when I wanted to start studying TODAY, the freaking library was not open. Hows that for trying to think positive.

And what happens when I be more patient with people? I deal with more and more unreasonable people. Why did I previously mention that I think 2009 is a better year for me? because I met with a few of such people, and I happen to think, hey, don't spoil the start of the year, be nice. So I really thought that overcoming such obstacles will only mean less of those in the future. But what do I get, I get more and more of such unreasonable situations. So much so that the whole trying to be a better person resolution is failing. You know like how when your mean and nasty, people avoid you, so you don't get such people in your life. But when you're nice and all, people realise you are approachable and take you for granted kinda thingi? Then you get more of such people in your life, asking for favours, pleading for grants.

And I joined my first ever academic related activity in my life, thinking "hey, I could be more assertive, and my year will be a better one" only to realise I've got to do SO MANY SHIT for that activity. And when everything is done, and everything could have ran smoothly, because I've been thinking positively that the worse could not happen. THE WORSE HAPPENED. I have to go through yet another hassle because someone screwed up.

My oh my, my life isn't very exciting isn't it?

Please tell how to get through my misery.